today was a rather emotionally stimulating day.

class was pretty much normal today, not much to report there.

thinking a lot today about the 'friend zone'. i looked at my facebook friends list, and did a mental list of my friends, and i realized i am friends with many attractive people who would not give me a second look in a relationship. they are out of bounds, or unavailable, or unwilling. why is this? is it some personal characteristic in me that makes me a better friend than (can't think of a good word to fill this space...) partner? do all these people have some common characteristic that repels this idea of me, or is it me?  i do not understand this, but i seem to be friendzoned on all frontiers. it is the wall of China to my mongol horde, spear wall to my charging cavalry, the quicksand trapping my feet. this vexes me...no hard feelings on anyone who has friendzoned me, we have laughably little leeway in our control of emotion...if the feelings aren't there, nothing may be done, and alas, the story of my life.

went to a concert today for the school's jazz band. it was awesome, several anecdotes to follow:

a. watching the conductor. the first couple songs, he is simply tapping his foot. the middle of the concert, he is bouncing a bit, and turning on the spot. the last couple songs - he's rocking out. it was awesome, he's wildly gesticulating in seemingly random directions and gesturing at people left right and center. looked like he was just waving his arms around at them, but it was epic.

b. the first song for the senior band. the students file in and take their seats, with their shiny, polished instruments gleaming in the bright light. one last girl walks across the stage, all formal in heels and black. she strides to left of center of the crowd of musicians, and as they make a marvelous melody, mixing many instruments together in an awesome array of artistry, she raises two wooden sticks and bangs them together, keeping the beat. purely inspirational.

c. there were 6-8 saxes there, and two of them stood out. all but these were gleaming gold, but one was shining silver and the other, i'm not too sure. it was just...not gleaming. it had a really cool effect on it that made it look like plastic at some points, and metal on the other, and the color seemed to shift as he turned. not really sure what was going on there but it was cool.

i fell asleep today at 6. not really sure why, i just did. i slept for an hour.

i'm rather liking alliterations right now...not sure why, just am.

i have no school tomorrow, or any day for the next 2 weeks. we're roadtripping across Germany. it's gonna be awesome.